For A While

FOR A WHILE

It seemed so wonderful, to be young and know the feeling of love

Of being wanted, held, attended to, knowing someone wanted only you

The feeling so easy to accept, so wanted, you stay just.........for a while

Time passed and imperceptibly slipped ever so slowly into apathy.

Not even noticing the lack of real passion in our busy lives

We only talked perfunctorily at each other as we passed each morning

But soon the children will be old enough to stand on their own a little

and to help out giving us time to get it back, it's only.........for a while

So many things I wanted to do, so many dreams lay in dust at my feet

Who is this person I see now in the mirror, whose eyes look back with haunting sadness.

Responsibilities, yes I have responsibilities, I have so many things to do.

But they seem to have no importance and it's just......for a while

My mind grasps now blindly for my dreams, and holds only shadows.

What were they. What was I wanted to do so long ago, so far away

that my memory fails. I only wanted to find me. The who I am, not the

person that someone else wanted me to be, but it was only.......for a while

Now there are no dreams, and not even a small memory of them survives

for the pain would be too much to think about what I have thrown away.

I watch the grandchildren play and I see the wonder in their new eyes.

I can feel the joy in their new hearts, and watch their minds majestically

soar into the clouds with imagination, dreaming my precious lost dreams.

And my heart screams, don't wait, don't wait, run, run with your dreams

now while you still can ...........please don't wait.....................for a while